controlling birth

A few days ago I recieved a phone call from the Target pharmacy indicating that my birth control pills persciption has expired, and in order to get a refill I needed to get a new scrip from my doctor. I was genuinely confused, but then after more thought I remembered that at one point I had to take BC pills to regulate my cycle which was well over a year ago considering in the past year I have been pregnant, delivered, and as of Sunday I will have a 3 month old baby. I somehow feel like even though I have this beautiful little person lying next to me right now, I am still somehow haunted by the fact that I was not able to concieve her on my own, and may not be able to concieve a little brother or sister without the assisntance of modern day technology. With that being said, I certainly have no interest in taking birth control pills which would definately prevent me from at the very least having an "oops baby." I admit, and agree that getting pregnant right now would be extrememly soon after having Nola, but given what we have been through to have her, any additions to our family would be a welcome blessing. So my answer to Target pharmacy was "no thanks." It should have been "leave me alone!!!" I already have no control of my fertility, and what little control I have, I don't want to give it over to a pill called THE BIRTH CONTROL PILL.